Rising from Guilt !

'Guilt' got the better of me. The 'kitchen run' took a back seat and we decided to indulge. For me indulgence in food has always meant only one thing in Mumbai .. Stella. The fine dine italian restaurant in 'The Leela'. There is no equal to the iternal bliss i feel there, as i sit in silence, slowly relishing the pure joy of real italian cooking.

On Tuesday night it was stella ,it was the same top notch food .. but my mood was screwed !! As asha sat there taking pictures of every order that we got, i envied her happiness. I used to be like her in all our previous occasions here. This time I was not myself. Something kept on going in my mind ... and I felt guilty. I loved the food but could not really enjoy it. I felt i had to be in some place else .. where ? my kitchen i said to myself. I did not mention it to her as it wudve spoilt the evening. I also realised that for me to enjoy really expensive food I must feel that I deserve it. Obviously that night i did not.

Neways .. after having spent nearly 48 hrs in depression (that meant eating 4 scoops of vanilla at a stretch ,having a lacchha paratha with galawti kebab and eating a galaxy hazelnut everytime i saw one) I was back in my kitchen last night again. That explains why m i writing today. The time spent with cooking is directly proportional to the words written here i guess.

I finally did try the Salmon Philly Cheez Cucumber sushi and gave it to some guests too. I did not want them to like it. I just wanted them to taste it. I somehow feel I am the guy assigned to promote the cause of sushi. 'eat and then decide' thats what i tell every one who makes a 'what is this' face everytime he spots a sushi.

So guys if the 'packaged sushi' is the only sushi u come across .. do not eat it. U may just end up hating it for eternity. Eat it fresh from the makers hand. Chances are u may just say yes the second time !!

I wont make any promises to myself about cooking..I hate north indian food and i will not let depression make me eat it. So the buttom line .. Cook for happiness !!

Hasta Luega !